To the best of my knowledge I am not being cuckolded. At one time I was married to an unfaithful wife. I was in constant agony and was unable to get her to stop. When I met Mistress Linda and we became intimate she decided I would be denied conventional intercourse. She determined I was too small, too quick and too soft. She decided I would be used for licking and as long as I kept her happy with that she would remain faithful. We have now been married for just over four years. I am kept in chastity and allowed stimulation on a weekly basis at her convenience. 

Mistress is a business woman and has many men friends and clients. I am retired and keep house. Mistress Linda has meetings and lunch dates with the men she knows for business reasons. She has told me that some of the men have made it clear that they are interested in more than business. Recently she told me she is thinking about testing the waters with one of them. It seems that she is missing sex with a man. Mistress has explained to me that she is a normal healthy woman with an admiration for full size erect cock. As a partially feminine male I should understand and accept this advancement in our relationship. 

I may understand but I don't think I can accept. The thought of being a cuckold is terrifying to me but I am dripping in my cage thinking about it. If this happens how will i cope with the shame and humiliation.

I am already in a tiny device that Mistress says looks like a dolphin and she has named it flipper. I wear a bra and panties daily and often am in a dress and proper shoes. Is cuckolding the next logical step. How can there be such a love hate syndrome in this?